Window Without a View

...when you are six feet under
without really being there
when all you wish to be
is asleep forever
perhaps
the rest will then begin

...when you do not wish
to have a view
to not see what really
stands out
blatant, brutally
and you cant help but choke

...when all you are
culminates to the single point
of futility
of running and trying
to win a race you wish wasn't there
and didn't matter

...